What happens after falling down defines who you are. We can’t control most of the hardships we’ll face in life, but our response is a choice.
I like to think that I’ve been wounded or injured, but never broken. I know this is semantics, but the stories we tell ourselves matter, and the little voice inside my head is really loud sometimes. I believe that what we tell ourselves and how we define our life experiences needs a twist toward the positive, with hope that life can always be better (even when it’s already great). Otherwise it’s too easy to get stuck in hardship, sadness, anger, routine, and live as a victim, live on auto-pilot, or kind-of give up. As it turns out, everyone will face really hard times, make difficult decisions, feel letdown, and experience tragedy. Each story has unique elements, and each personality will face the highs and lows of life differently, but the truth remains the same for everyone: how we get-up and face ourselves and life after falling down is life altering, for better or worse.
In my 20’s I “got back up” by pretending things weren’t that bad. With an “out of sight, out of mind” attitude, I pushed forward without learning much from my mistakes, and as a result I made similar mistakes over and over again.
At the very wise age of 35 (haha) I’m doing things differently. My life fell apart a couple of years ago, and thankfully something inside of me chose to handle everything differently this time. “NO MORE PRETENDING” I yelled at myself. I got to this place in life through a series of poor decisions and ignoring massive warning signs, all for the sake of keeping the peace, doing the right thing, becoming an adult, being responsible, and the entire time I told myself that life doesn’t always work out how you’d hoped. This is utter shit, but it took me a long time and a lot of heartache to learn that life is actually what we make of it, we can wake-up and change at anytime, every day is a new start, my dreams are mine, and we are only limited by the restrictions we place on ourselves. It’s taken a lot of practice, patience, forgiveness, and love to become a better version of myself. I chose to rebuild my life by embracing the brokenness and healing the hurt, instead of trying to run from my past. This has been a journey of truly getting to know myself, and let’s be real, it’s hard to change, even when it’s good and you want to. I’m still unnecessarily hard on myself at times, and I still sink back into negative thought processes, but the cool thing is that I’m able to quickly recognize when I’m slipping and treat myself with kindness instead of cruelty. Now the little voice inside my head is a cheerleader and my biggest fan. Everyday I choose to live with gratitude and strive for my hopes and dreams…. MY HOPES AND DREAMS, not anyone else’s!
If you are living to make someone else happy at the expense of your own happiness, or if your inner voice is unkind and holding you back, or if you’re afraid of going after your dreams, it’s time to make some changes. You are worthy of living the life you want, so GET UP from where you are today, stop thinking about the past and what could have been, and face life as a new start. Talk to yourself with love, STOP MAKING EXCUSES, and choose to go after your best life. You’ll be amazed at how wonderful life is when you’re true to yourself!